Privacy and the Present.
There are those who think that because I’m online all day that I over-share the details of my life. In reality, nothing could be further from the truth. In true Virgo fashion, I share what I choose to in a rather honest and transparent manner, but there are so many things that I keep to myself partially because I actually am a pretty private person. Some of it by choice, some of it by necessity.
Another reason I’m not saying everything or snapping pics more frequently is often I’m immersed in the moment. It’s funny: I’ll be at the same event as others and they’ll have taken exponentially more pictures and tweeted more, and it looks great online, but usually I’m trying to be in the thick of it, and it feels even better there. If I’m at a concert, I’m soaking up the music and studying the artist’s stage presence. If I’m at party/DJ spin, I’m wildin’ out on the dancefloor. Sometimes, I’m engaged in a thought-provoking conversation or just observing people and gleaning life lessons, but I’m there. I’m engaged, creating memories for myself and those around me.
Those that really matter to me often don’t get shouted out or have their pics posted on my Instagram account. Why? Because I share my heart and my thoughts with them privately. They who know they are because I make sure to tell them and show them. Do I wish I could it more publicly? Sometimes, but that’s not really me nor was that how I was raised.
This time last year, I wrote open letters to people who mattered to me because I figured someone else could relate to the feelings. This year, I wrote personal cards and gave them with Christmas gifts because I felt it needed to be that intimate. 2012 won’t get a “year in review” blog post because so much of it was lessons and truths for me and me alone. Maybe someday I’ll be in a place to really share them with everyone, but right now I hold them close to my heart and consider them sacred.